Life Tracks – Natalie Merchant – Giving Up Everything

…people have this kind of primal desire and need for music to nourish them emotionally… The song is my attempt to tell myself to release the grip that I have on expectations and on notions of how things should be, and be more accepting of the way that things are.

Natalie Merchant, Spirituality and Health Magazine, July/August 2014

Natalie has done it again – her deep, contemplative lyrics combined with the unique and sultry alto that is unmistakeably hers, will have me playing this one in those soul searching moments. There is always a line or two in a song that especially resonates for me and in this one, they are “I mercy-killed my craving” and “My cursed search for meaning”.

Giving up everything
My hungry ghost of hopefulness
Giving up everything
Not haunted by wanting this

Giving up everything
The fortune I was saving
Giving up everything
I mercy-killed my craving

Giving up everything
I’ve opened up my eyes for this
Giving up everything
See the cold magnificent emptiness

Give what I want for how it is
The stone inside and the bitterness
For sweetness at the core of it

Giving up everything
The master plan, the scheming
Giving up everything
My cursed search for meaning

Giving up everything
The compass and the map I was reading
The hinterlands I’m leaving
I’m finally leaving behind

Giving up everything
The big to-do, the hullabaloo
Talk of hope for some twisted truth
For the everlasting ache of it

No longer sleep, not chained to it
No gate, no guard, no keeper
No guru, master, teacher
See the slow, see the faces
Dissolve to black, no traces


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